Metamorphosis

In life…transformations of our life can sometimes happen suddenly…but much of the transition of ourselves happens in stages and phases…each change adding depth, color and character to our life tapestry…

Twelve months of magical slowing down..resting…rejuvenation of body, soul and spirit…being rebuilt…listening to myself and relearning and learning what is important to me during this chapter of life…

Lately I have felt stagnated…”itchy” like when damaged skin in healing…shedding old ways and beliefs that no longer feel comfortable to my authentic self…my experiences are changing the dimensions of my self- perception…

The greatest gift you have to give is your own self-transformation.

~Lao Tzu

…so much going on here…right now…lots of home renovation being done…torn foot ligaments…finding a photography club to be involved in…writing…Mr. P’s 3+ engineering projects…relationship time…friends and family…cooking…cleaning..business accounting…need to create a business website…and self-care…exercising…and..and…they are all things that I absolutely love doing…yet feeling overwhelmed…

When I start feeling overwhelmed…exhausted mentally….I start shutting down…and don’t get anything accomplished…I had a wonderful reminder the other day that no one can do everything at once…she said to find what gives my heart joy…what a brilliant place to start…

…But I love it all…mostly creative expressions and pursuits in one way or another (lol…cleaning would be the exception)…back to the drawing board… prioritize...time is always a factor in our human existence…so limited and precious…as much as I would like to think I am super woman…it’s only in my head and very debilitating to the body and soul…

What should take preeminence…what are my current top 5 Life Priorities…

• Priority #1 – Health…the primary focus is on losing weight and obtaining my optimum BMI…I have lost over 50 lbs….but still have 38% of my current weight to lose…

This is at the top of my list because without health…there is nothing…

“Maintaining a good health is the biggest investment that you could ever make, because without it, a lot of things in life would become impossible.”
― Edmond Mbiaka

If I am healthy…I have space in my heart and mind to enjoy everything else…I have the world at my fingertips…full of possibilities…I can do anything I want in life. I can enjoy my family to the fullest, I can love my friends and my man with intent and purpose…

• Priority #2 – Relationships…most specifically Family…whether blood, out-laws and in-laws…employees and friends…the people who are our anchors and life jackets in the rough waters…the bond of love and joy in sharing each others lives..those who accept us as we are with all our foibles…those who believe and support us…

When my story eventually reaches its end, there are people that I would like to look back with. I hope to be able to look back at this life with this family I have surrounded myself and know that I was loved and that I am leaving a legacy of love in the hearts and lives of this family…

Priority #3 – Adventure/Life Experiences…always been an adventurer… opportunity to see the world, to meet new people, to learn about myself and to squeeze every bit of life out of this adventure around the sun...traveling and spending time in nature

Priority #4 – Creativity…creativity in all of its forms makes me feel sparkly and light up my spirit…even when it’s sanding baseboards to repaint…peeling and chopping miles of vegetables to make a delicious meal…spending an hour hunting for that “just right” synonym…taking millions of photographs in the hopes I can have just the “right” viewpoint/story to share…

Priority #5 – Self Development/Learning…Learning…just learning something that I never knew before is exciting…Personal Development…becoming the best version of who I was created to be…

I remember reading this quote many years ago and thinking that I want to leave everything that I came into this earth to share…not holding back anything…

“The graveyard is the richest place on earth, because it is here that you will find all the hopes and dreams that were never fulfilled, the books that were never written, the songs that were never sung, the inventions that were never shared, the cures that were never discovered, all because someone was too afraid to take that first step, keep with the problem, or determined to carry out their dream.” – Les Brown

…but rather arriving empty at the pearly gates being a good steward of the gifts that I was given…

“Life should not be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well preserved body, but rather to skid in broadside in a cloud of smoke, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming “Wow! What a Ride!”
― Hunter S. Thompson, The Proud Highway: Saga of a Desperate Southern Gentleman, 1955-1967

…which brings me to the changes that I thinking of making within my blog…my yearly subscription is almost due for renewal…I thought I would delete the account and take some time off from writing…thereby reducing the list of things to currently focus on…

I found that I was just writing on another site…so that wasn’t going to be a solution…spending 4 or 5 hours per blog is a big chunk out of my day…so now what…

Changing the format or length of personal essays…making this more of a journaling platform…

I hope that you will stay with me during these changes…

Dedicated to the Mr. P

“Walk with me through life and I’ll have everything I need for the journey.”