135 Days…

Back home from a cold and rainy forest holiday in Hogsback (strange name with unknown origin)…supposedly the place that inspired JRR Tolkien… nestled in the Amatola Mountain range and housing the oldest forest in South Africa…

With no wi-fi or internet…you can lose yourself in the pure magic…the earthy smells and fragrances of the natural world triggering old memories, and creating new ones…the heavy, heady smell of damp forest…

It sits on your shoulder and seeps into your senses… excited to see the colors and smell of …I am missing the crisp air and the vibrate reds, and oranges so beautifully mixed with muted shades of yellow and brown…such a kaleidoscope of color…my heart sang…and I still reel with the beauty that is just too exquisite to be able to find the right words…

“Autumn shows us how beautiful it is to let things go.” ~Unknown

An apt quote for the mission that I am on to let go of the unhealthy part of myself…physically and mentally…

A celebration before we left…for Mr. P’s birthday at a restaurant called Natti’s Thai Kitchen

Why can I never remember the effects of food and drink that are so detrimental to me…in the suspended moments of enjoyment with great friends and wonderful food…there was definitely too much alcohol imbibed by me…

I don’t normally drink alcohol…but it difficult for me in a social situation to abstain totally…normally one glass is sufficient…but that night everyone brought alcohol…gin and several bottles of wine…after one…it was too easy to allow my glass to keep being filled…

A fact of life…our bodies weaken with age…and I am working harder at trying to find a happy and healthy balance…drinking more than an occasional glass of wine is not on the list any more…but I get caught up in the frivolity and joy…I wasn’t prepared for the situation…

With being highly sensitive…the next day I reaped the effects…hormonal imbalance…depression is the worst…teary eyed…extra sensitive to every word that was spoken to me…morose and definitely not motivated to do anything…

At least I realized what was happening…and there is not much that I can do, except wait it out…but it always feels like a wasted day…miserable…you would think it would be a huge red flag…memory is so not reliable sometimes…

Difficult to eat correctly and track…motivate myself to exercise…all the routines that provide optimum living for me…Didn’t really have time to dwell on it much…getting ready to leave for Hogsback…such a needed break…

I ground in Nature…it is the most healing place that I can be…and the forest is probably the number 1 place that I love to just get lost in…wrapped in the soothing arms of Mother Earth…Stepping into a forest is like walking through a gate…I can release all the fuss and stress behind…to be greeted with peace and fragrant nature.

I didn’t track and was worried that I would gain weight…but the 80/20 rule applied…stress is outlawed during breaks from “real” life…we walked… hiked…over 10,000 steps per day…up and down…carrying photographic equipment…

Didn’t learn my lesson…Gin Tasting for me…

Don’t you just love the hat🤣

Was it worth it…I came back with a 2 lb. loss…so in that respect…it did not hurt my progress…but I don’t enjoy the punishment that ensues… my feelings of peace and happiness…

I made a choice…I don’t think I’ll be a teetotaler… but limiting myself to ONE drink is doable…there were other choices that hung on the coattails of that one…choosing to give up processed wheat and sugar…for a couple of weeks to confirm if my sensitivities are affected… there are a few studies that show that refined sugar and wheat have a drug-effect on the brain…

It worked when I lost the initial fifty pounds…but I didn’t eat fruit…because even natural sugars can sometimes cause my insulin to go wonky and I get hungry and hangry…and there goes the program…

Just one day at a time…for me it is difficult right now…carbs are my absolute fav…and I really resist the thought that it is imperative for me to be healthy…”If you resist giving up certain foods it is likely you’re addicted or intolerant to them”…and I cringe…clench my jaws…become very irritated at the thought…hmmm

I’m on my third day…just taking one day at a time…I’ll let you know how it goes…

Finally…three years later…wild baboons running wild in town
Rain Soaked…

Have a Magical Day warmed with Love❣

Vroom.. Vroom

Like a souped-up car at the starting lineup of an illicit street race…a little more battered and poorly maintained than most of the participants in the contest of losing weight…but here I am…gunning my engine…

Ok…it’s more like turtling along …a nostalgic cruising with the oldies…

It took me awhile to get to the starting lineup this time…keep making a wrong turn…getting caught in dead ends or facing a brick wall…needing to back up, turn around and try another route…my map was quite out of date apparently…

Here is the map that I am using to find the that I am seeking…a healthy mental and physical body that I feel confident in and my added desired benefit… An age-appropriate black dress sexy …

SMART GOALS

Specific, Measurable, Achievable, Relevant, Time-bound.

Why? Why is this important to me …especially when some people in retirement are ready for the sideline rocking chair…Because I AM NOT…I just found my Prince and want to spend as much quality time exploring life with him…being an example to my granddaughters…being able to pursue my passion of photography (getting flat on the ground to take unique perspectives with my camera is easier with a healthy and flexible body)…each pound lost removes 4 pounds of pressure off my poor grumpy back…and knees…and most importantly…brain health “a person’s weight goes up, all regions of the brain go down in activity and blood flow” …”This study shows that being overweight or obese seriously impacts brain activity and increases the risk for Alzheimer’s disease as well as many other psychiatric and cognitive conditions,”

https://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2020/08/200805110127.htm#:~:text=on%20brain%20function-,Higher%20BMI%20is%20linked%20to%20decreased%20cerebral%20blood%20flow%2C%20which,Alzheimer’s%20disease%20and%20mental%20illness&text=Summary%3A,a%20new%20brain%20imaging

I had been on anti-depressants for a period for time when I was faced with dealing with my husband’s cancer surgery and chemotherapy during Covid in a new country…slowly coming off took about 4 months… and this week I am back to feeling like myself…the good, bad, and ugly😁

Found that EFT really is a great support for releasing anxiety that causes emotional eating and the need for wrapping myself up in a blanket of fluff…meditation was a great start…but this seems to be a better fit for me and this sensitivity that I have been blessed with (HSP/INFJ)…

Be Consistent with Logging and Exercising for 146 days (20 weeks)…that’s when we’ll be flying into the USA after being gone for 3+ years…I don’t want to put a specific weight because I do not know exactly how quickly my body is willing to release the curvaceous aspects of itself…

“Do it again and again. Consistency makes the raindrops to create holes in the rock. Whatever is difficult can be done easily with regular attendance, attention and action.”

Israelmore Ayivor, ‘The Great Hand Book Of Quotes’.

Tracking weight in Fitbit every Monday and daily logging in MFP Food Dairy I use Fitbit for logging weight because it is connected to my scale and I like other features such as my sleep score…but for some reason it is easier to record my food intake with My Fitness Pal

Goal of 1365 calories 80% of the time…I want to be mindful without being obsessive…more fruits and vegetables…less sugar and refined carbs…I feel so much better when I eat this way…

Walking 5x a week…gym twice a week…for me that’s achievable…my goal steps per day is minimum 5,000 to 10,000…

I commit to being accountable for the 146 days…and will review at that point what my long term goals will be…so for the next 146 days I will post daily in this blog…what I ate before and my exercise log…and how I am sputtering along

…And here we go

Much love and laughter for your day…sprinkled with magic

144 Days…Gym Day

Gym Rule #1: If you want to know the correct way to perform an exercise, the answer is: Whatever hurts most.” – Jason Love

That is how I felt yesterday. It had been awhile since I had hit the gym …yesterday the gym hit me right back for being absent😂

I have been out of commission with a grumpy lower back…an hour of weight machines was probably a little much…came back home and had to go and comfort my grumbling back.by laying down…I had planned to go for a walk to at least get 5,000 steps on a gym day…but as you see that didn’t happen…something to keep working on…

“The most annoying are those people in exceptionally good shape at the gym. I’m like ‘What are you doing here? You’re done.'” – Jim Gaffigan

Way to many carbs…my resting heartrate always increases with extra carbs…today it went increased a beat…back up to 68…not stressing…just monitoring…the goal was accomplished of eating less than I used…I’ll just keep fine tuning…

The nutritionist told me that stress is harmful to weight loss… “When you’re under stress, your body boosts production of the hormone cortisol. Chronic stress and persistently high cortisol levels may be associated with increased appetite and weight gain.“…another reason that EFT is helpful for me…

Steps for the Day

Keep Turtling…

Days Until…143

🐢🐢🐢🐢🐢🐢🐢🐢🐢🐢…Turtling Along

It does take about an hour a day to get 10,000 steps…30 minutes in the morning exercise video…Leslie Sansone 2 mile Walking video on Youtube (Free) AND 30 minutes in the afternoon…walking the dog when weather permits…love being outside…breathing the fresh air…

That’s how I’m changing my mindset. Dieting based on willpower DOES NOT work long-term…Learning to “love” more vegetables…definitely a work in progress…yesterday made mashed potatoes out of half pumpkin and half potato…a little more palatable…changing my taste buds to enjoy healthy foods takes time…but it does happen…I loved my Diet Coke…but after giving it up and leaving it alone…when I tried it again…it tasted “nasty”…so that gives me hope…

❣Love, Laughter and Magic…🐢

I have a Secret…

There is excitement in the adventure that I am taking…I will embrace the excitement and will accept the challenges…

Birthday Over…Although I celebrate every day because I am given a present🎁 every morning of a new day filled with possibilities…

I have struggled over the years…especially the last two years…after an initial weight loss of forty-five pounds…Age plays a role…but that does not mean this is impossible…this mountain I am climbing…difficult…probably…but not impossible…some days, and even weeks lately…it has felt unconquerable…

A 15,00000000-foot mountain and just lacing up the boots…yet, that is where everyone starts…every celebrated author, sports hero, actor, and each everyday person who accomplishes their dream…

Asking for Help

I HATE asking for help…absolutely, empathically hate asking…a weakness…feeling that I should be intelligent enough to figure things out on my own…never wanting to be inadequate, incompetent, or needy…never trusting or being vulnerable…Vulnerability being the key word…the fear of being judged as less than “perfect” in a society that bows at the feet of magnificent faultlessness …

…Still in class in the school of being “human”… I am learning that asking for help requires courage and a willingness to be transparent…and after struggling for the last few years to become healthier by losing more weight…I asked for the dreaded, yet necessary support I need…

Scratching and clawing with every ounce of strength I had…until I would cry in frustration with the feeling of hopelessness…not getting anywhere but sliding backwards… further back down the mountain…

Don’t really know why the change after the initial loss…but nothing worked…not Keto (except to make my heart rate increase skywards) not tracking…not exercising…and…and…except to say that I couldn’t seem to stay consistent in anything…

I had tried a nutritionist over a year ago…didn’t really work for me because it wasn’t about my particular (and peculiar American tastes in the South African world) likes or dislikes…trying to push a liquid diet…stopped going after 2 meetings…

Concerned that my age was going to make the hike up the mountain to be an impossible task…either because I am donkey stubborn or not quite ready to give up and sit in a rocking chair…I acquiesced and tried another dietician…like “chalk and cheese” as Mr. P is prone to say😊…

I am so glad that I was willing to try again…I left with such a feeling of effervescent, lighthearted bubbly hope…I had forgotten what it felt like…she listened to me…she asked a lot of questions about my preferences and motivations… We developed goals that were acceptable…

That was yesterday…it will be a couple of days before she sends me the plan that she is making custom for my preferences and lifestyle…I can’t wait to get started with more concrete directives…

This will give me the flexibility for my “free spirit” not to feel stifled…

Moral:

Quotes about Asking god for help (27 quotes)

Much love, laughter and magic for your day…you are brave❣

Creating the Future…

“You can lament over what could have been, or you can do something bold; use that energy to create an enviable future. It is up to you.”

Richelle E. Goodrich


Being the Aquarian non-conformist that I am… and not good at sticking to New Year Resolutions…I never start my year on January first…instead, choosing to use the month to “PYR” …past year review… my own personal annual performance review…what worked and what didn’t in moving me forward toward accomplishing life goals…deleting or adding, as needed…regaining focus

  • What were my biggest wins of the past year? What am I proud of accomplishing last year? What memorable experiences did I have last year?
    • The highpoint of the year was November 28th…the day that I married the love of my life…what could be better than that!
    • Our New Kitchen…just what I wanted…
    • My son surprised me and flew in to be at the wedding
    • My biggest win for me was when I finally started entering the photographic competitions
    • Many photographic experiences and new & returning adventures …Rooi-Els, Cape Town Trips, Cape St. Francis beach trips, Amakhala Safari Lodge- Amakhala Game Reserve, Outings with the Camera Club to Van Stadens Flower Reserve…the Whale, Dolphin and Penguin Island Cruise

  • What was the biggest lesson that I learned?
    • My dreams can come true no matter what my age and no matter how long I have waited…Never give up…Hope always
  • What one personal quality did you most develop?
    • Following my dreams
    • Trusting that I am loved and accepted for who I am… even with all my quirks and folliables
“Three things in life – your health, your mission, and the people you love. That’s it.” ― Naval Ravikant
  • What is my biggest priority in 2022? What are my aspirations for this year?
    • Becoming Healthy...
  • What will support me in achieving this priority?
    • Routines…consistent healthy habits
“It is health that is real wealth and not pieces of gold and silver.” ― Mahatma Gandhi
  • If everything were already the way I want them to be in the following areas…what would the results be…in specific and measurable terms (as if they had already happened…

  • Health & Wellness
      • I weigh xxx. I listen to my body’s needs.  My positive thoughts and actions renew my mind and body. I am lean, fit, tight, and light…and fabulous! I fuel my body and have amazing results from my workouts. I drink water throughout the day. Every day my body becomes stronger and fitter…every cell in my body

  • Relationships
    • Mr. P and I have a long-lasting, happy, satisfying relationship. Our love grows stronger every day.  We are in loving, committed, strong relationship❣

“Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.”
– Lao Tzu

  • Spiritual/Mental Growth
    • I am cherished, treasured, and loved by God. I am a perfect open channel for divine love and peace. I am connected to the wisdom of the universe. I have a deep sense of inner peace that is always within me, no matter what happens. I am love. I am purpose. I was made with divine intention.

  • Personal Growth
    • I’m not stopping until I’m the best I can be. I want to inspire those around me with my growth. I won’t be trapped in the past. It’s time to work towards the future. I choose to live a rich and full life. I feed my spirit. I train my body. I focus my mind. It’s my time.

  • What will it cost me to not achieve these expectations?
    • I get upset and demotivated. I lose faith in myself. I feel that I am a failure.
    • Become demotivated
    • I waste the precious life that I am entrusted with
18 Quotes About Successful Goal Setting
  • What can I consistently do (habits) to achieve my goals in these areas?

  • Health & Wellness
    • I get 10,000 steps per day
    • I have a calorie deficit every day…Tracking Weight & Food Intake
    • I incorporate Weekly Strength Training, Cardio, and Yoga
    • Eat Low Carb…Eliminating the White (White Flour, White Sugar) and the Processed

  • Relationships
    • Date Night w Mr. P
    • Practice Love above all
    • Contact Close friends and Family consistently…weekly calls
    • Be two, not One – making my marriage a priority
    • Communicate-making sure I understand what was said

  • Spiritual/Mental Growth
    • Practice Love/Kindness Daily
    • Practice Gratitude
    • Meditate Daily…Practice Mindfulness
    • Show Empathy
    • Journal Daily
    • I live a happier life in the future than I was living in that moment
    • Study consciousness, religion, or philosophy
    • Learn to work with energy
    • Becoming More Intuitive
    • Becoming more Peaceful

  • Personal Growth
    • Study Daily (5X a week) …study to enhance my skills in Adobe
    • Make my health a Priority this Year…
    • Join the National Photographic Society and Enter Competitions
    • Keep Adventuring
    • Commit to Life-Long Learning
    • Have Faith in Myself
    • Live Authentically
    • Form Consistent Good Habits – Replacing Bad Habits
    • Grow beyond my Comfort Zone
    • Take Life Less Seriously – Enjoy the Present
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There are long term goals broken down into short term goals…losing 5 pounds per month and focusing on that instead of freaking out about the impossible long-term goal that I have set (you know that setting the flag on the top of Mt. Everest) …

In writing what I want to accomplish this year…looks overwhelming…the most important thing I learned from last year is that we CAN have it all…but just not all at the same time…this year I dropped working on writing my novel and put on the shelf for this year…in reading about South Africa…the research does continue…

Ger Healthy and Continue to Grow in my Photographic Skills are the only two Personal Goals that I will laser focus on…the rest are continuations of the habits and routines that are consistent already…

10 Quotes That Will Inspire You to Do What You Love | The Muse

What would you like to accomplish this year, so you can look back and be happy with the stewardship of your life’s energy?

Love, laughter, and magic for your day🦋

Embracing our delectable…

When I think about aging …Long deep breaths until the dizziness passes…

I received a message yesterday that said, “Hi grandma. How are you? I just wanted to tell you that I am back safe.”… “grandma” …I immediately sent back the reply…”I think you sent this to me by mistake.”…which followed “No, I sent this for you”…

After I finished stomping around, huffing, and puffing…Mr. P. gently reminded me that it was a sign of respect…I do love that here in Africa…the cultural stereotype of older adults is so different than what I saw in the United States…

Mass media…the central nervous system of western societies assists in the creation of social prejudice…no matter what societal background you exist within …Ageism…youth and beauty glorified and “older people have had to face an escalating level of disregard, disrespect, and marginalization ….”https://www.scirp.org/journal/paperinformation.aspx?paperid=78445

My experience here has been vastly different…where respect for age and the older generation is a societal ideal…I was taken back the first time that I was addressed as mama ‘mother’

In the Xhosa culture…When greeting a person older than yourself (more or less your parents’ age), tata ‘father’ would be used for a man and mama ‘mother’ for a woman. For greetings of people of your grandparents’ age, tat’omkhulu ‘grandfather’, and makhulu ‘grandmother’ are used as forms of address. Greeting someone of your own age
you would address her as sisi, ‘sister’, and bhuti, ‘brother’ for the male counterpart
https://www.unisa.ac.za/

…but still “Grandma”…although changing…unfortunately my view on aging is still a westernized version…where beauty (not wisdom and experience) is venerated…

I meandered down a different path…This blog had started out to be about goals…although aging influences how I am going about it this year…I never set New Year Eve’s goals…being the non-conformist that I am… spending the month of January assessing the last year and re-establishing what is most important to me…where I am at…my birthday of January 26th being my “New Year”…

“We must not despair the evanescent nature of time or our brief existence; we must embrace our delectable moment on earth. Life is a fantastic dream where we rejoice in the incomparable beauty of this misty world of ethereal sensations and sentiments. Buddha said, “It is better to travel well than to arrive.” We must swim with the tide and rejoice in life of memory, dreams, and the beauty that is transpiring before our very eyes. Indian Buddhist teacher and philosopher Nagarjuna advises in “The Diamond Sutra,” to enjoy the dream world, “Thus shall you think of this fleeting world: A star at dawn, a bubble in the stream; a flash of lightening in a summer cloud; a flickering lamp, a phantom, and a dream.”

Kilroy J. Oldster, Dead Toad Scrolls

My Tribute to the Delicacies of this past year…

As with anyone’s life…it’s a roller coaster…there were cancer checkups, surgeries, and things that drove us a little crazy …although I don’t have far to go for that) … 2021 last year whizzed by in a blur (it is said that as we have more years on earth the quicker it goes) …it was a breathtakingly incredible and memorable year…Mr. P. put in his workshop (something he’s always wanted) …now he has two “man caves” I must search when I need find him…

trips to Addo..to Cape Town

On the Way to Rooi-Els

Learning about Birding…a Mr. P. interest Cape Town again Kirstenbosch National Botanical Garden…

Table Mountain (Nature Reserve)

Female Sugarbird

By June…I was learning about the strongest insect in the world…the Dung Beetle…so interesting I wrote two blogs

Cape Glossy Starling Dancing the Tango

Watching Bacchus become more self-confident…we had gotten him at the shelter, and he was so scared of other dogs at first that he would run home the first time we took him for a walk…still doesn’t bark though…

August..we spent a weekend at Cape St. Francis…spending time with Mr. P’s niece and her boyfriend…I will always remember the sunset wine with them…beautiful souls who gives hope for our future generations…

Sept. started planning for the kitchen renovation…made new friends (for me) when we stayed at Amakhala Safari Lodge and met bachelor Norman…the welcome committee…

October…we were finishing the kitchen…after washing dishes in the bathroom sink for weeks…searching for utensils, pots, and pans on the mess in the living room…spending a couple of days at the cottage by the sea to recover…tussling with all the paperwork needed to get married in a foreign country…

November went by…just as quickly…the annual “Raggy Charters Island Tour” with the Photographic Club…St. Croix Island…the home of about 10,000 South African Penguins and Brenton Island…a tad windy but so enjoyable for those that didn’t experience seasickness…

November was the pièce de résistance…I married the “hunky” knight in shining armour that I adore…the gallant Mr. P. …my son surprised me and flew in to give me away…an elegant ceremony at his sister’s house…

“I marveled at the beauty of all life and savored the power and possibilities of my imagination. In these rare moments, I prayed, I danced, and I analyzed. I saw that life was good and bad, beautiful and ugly. I understood that I had to dwell on the good and beautiful in order to keep my imagination, sensitivity, and gratitude intact. I knew it would not be easy to maintain this perspective. I knew I would often twist and turn, bend and crack a little, but I also knew that…I would never completely break.”

― Maria Nhambu, Africa’s Child

What was your most awe- inspiring …the memory that you will cherish deep within your heart…

Maybe I can get to the plan for 2022…Much love, laughter, and magic in your life

Removing the Amour

Every day was a battle…covering myself from head to toe…

Medium weight armor is best for the movements of the limbs, but I never like to do anything half-heartedly…so I chose the heavier armor to protect my vital organs…my heart being the most vulnerable…

Every day was a battle…I slowly covered myself from head to toe…a defense after traumatic past events…insulating from unwanted attention…food soothing guilt, shame, as anesthesia, as self-punishment, soothing medicine, comfort, protection, and a way to stuff rage that was not safe to express…

The “double whammy” being that an HSP …I was unknowingly and unconsciously absorbing not only my own emotional pain but the mental energy, emotional energy, physical pain and sensations in other people’s bodies, environmental energy, and world collective energy …

Depression, anxiety, anger, confusion, and pain each creating a piece of armor…and it is heavy…

I am a survivor…no longer a victim…in a safe place…I removed almost fifty pieces/pounds…and then I just stopped and couldn’t climb any further up this mountain…I just sat down and no matter what I did or tried I did not find my momentum…whether it was a dietician or weight loss programs…there is still heavy baggage that must be released to be free…

Still working on the causes…whether it’s unmeet emotional needs from my childhood…fear of change or any other emotional issue…but I must start where I am at…and I started the climb again one foot in front of the other…one day at a time…sometimes it is a minute at a time…or an hour at a time…looking forward…focusing on the habits and processes that I know work for me…since on the fifth of this month…I released/let go 4.5 pounds more of heaviness…

“On your darkest days do not try to see the end of the tunnel by looking far ahead. Focus only on where you are right now. Then carefully take one step at a time, by placing just one foot in front of the other. Before you know it, you will turn that corner.”
― Anthon St. Maarten

Leather Armor Images, Stock Photos & Vectors | Shutterstock

Removing the armor…one piece at a time

Removing the armor means releasing the trapped dark and dense lower emotional energy of the past…balancing in my body, as well as my soul and spirit…to release and be filled with love, joy, and peace…

It is the starting that always seems the most difficult…but then there is the continuing…and the finishing too…that’s why laser focus on the next step in front of you is a critical component in anything…for me, it is my saving grace at the moment…

I have been working on this blog for three days and keep getting stuck

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The habits that I have been creating are 1) Logging everything that goes in the mouth. 2) reporting daily to my friend MP, who is my police officer. 3) Walking and Cardio 5,000 min – 10,000. 4) No white stuff ….and

5) No alcohol

you got to be kidding me

…now don’t get the idea that I drink a lot…but (1) glass of wine before dinner to sit and talk/relax with Mr. P was our sweet routine…and now I felt really left out…when Mr. P’s friend was here, they would enjoy their evening “tot” of whiskey…not a fun way to start…but I was determined…

There is always a solution…always…it might be difficult to find…but keep on searching…A little sparkling water, a little diet sprite, a smidgeon of grapefruit juice and a lemon slice in a nice glass…problem solved

Unfortunately…being an HSP…(a sensitive) includes what I eat and drink…and with these simple (and sometimes not so simple changes) my Resting Heart Rate dropped 10 points…

This is what loving myself looks like…which is another topic for a blog post…I don’t have a great amount of experience with accepting myself…and loving who I am was an impossibility…but it is said you’re never too old to learn…

Loving was only something that was allocated for someone else…walking the extra mile…giving the coat off your back…self-care and self-love was a non-entity in my life…a friend of mine once asked me, “Don’t you think you deserve better?”…should have been a clue…

Quote by Charlie Chaplin…

“As I began to love myself I found that anguish and emotional suffering are only warning signs that I was living against my own truth. Today, I know, this is “AUTHENTICITY”.

As I began to love myself I understood how much it can offend somebody if I try to force my desires on this person, even though I knew the time was not right and the person was not ready for it, and even though this person was me. Today I call it “RESPECT”.

As I began to love myself I stopped craving for a different life, and I could see that everything that surrounded me was inviting me to grow. Today I call it “MATURITY”.

As I began to love myself I understood that at any circumstance, I am in the right place at the right time, and everything happens at the exactly right moment. So I could be calm. Today I call it “SELF-CONFIDENCE”.

As I began to love myself I quit stealing my own time, and I stopped designing huge projects for the future. Today, I only do what brings me joy and happiness, things I love to do and that make my heart cheer, and I do them in my own way and in my own rhythm. Today I call it “SIMPLICITY”.

As I began to love myself I freed myself of anything that is no good for my health – food, people, things, situations, and everything that drew me down and away from myself. At first I called this attitude a healthy egoism. Today I know it is “LOVE OF ONESELF”.

As I began to love myself I quit trying to always be right, and ever since I was wrong less of the time. Today I discovered that is “MODESTY”.

As I began to love myself I refused to go on living in the past and worrying about the future. Now, I only live for the moment, where everything is happening. Today I live each day, day by day, and I call it “FULFILLMENT”.

As I began to love myself I recognized that my mind can disturb me and it can make me sick. But as I connected it to my heart, my mind became a valuable ally. Today I call this connection “WISDOM OF THE HEART”.

We no longer need to fear arguments, confrontations or any kind of problems with ourselves or others. Even stars collide, and out of their crashing new worlds are born. Today I know “THAT IS LIFE”!”

Till next time…may your life be filled with much love, laughter and magic…❣

Fine…Like Wine

Wishing to be Younger is a Loss of the Beauty of the Present Time

…or at least a beautiful French Brandy…1956 was the year… Armagnac…fuller and more complex than the Cognac…definately me…expensive and better every day……born January 26, 1956

“Baron de Sigognac 1956 Vintage Armagnac has a beautiful amber colour with gold highlights. There is a delicate nose with an impressive wealth of aromas, where the light scents of pink grapefruit and apricot meet the clear aromas of dried fruits and cinnamon. A true olfactory pleasure. Mouth is as wonderful as nose, and delicately develops a marriage of crystallized citrus fruits and roasted coffee aromas, before merging in a beautiful and long finish of vanilla rancio.

https://www.vintagewineandport.co.uk/vintage-wine/1956-wine/

Yes…definately me 🙂 turning full bodied..hopefully not sour and vinegary…although I do probably give Mr. P a headache now and then…

…Yesterday was my 65th birthday…always a great deal of contemplation during the month of my birthday…never believed in New Year’s resolutions…probably because like most people…they never lasted longer than a few weeks…

So at the beginning of the year…until my birthday I take the time to reassess the past year…what progress of my life goals I made and what might need to be changed…who do I need to be to accomplish the desires I still carry …where do I want to be in 5 or 10 years…and the years after that…

But 65…whoa!!!! I CAN’T be…Refuse to be…I really don’t want to be 65…ok, I am 😦

Today, I recieved an email from My Notes to the Universe©www.tut.com asking…”Does the fact that each earthly life is so incredibly brief add to or detract from its sublime magnificence?” …great question

My personal response would be…that each day…each year…each decade that we experience upon this blue marble in the vastness of time and space bursts with new and unfamiliar experiences to live…ends and beginnings…there is such breath-taking magic in appreciating every new breath…the beauty is in the “now”…the joy is in the appreciation and embracing of the present…

Aging is an inevitable metamorphosis…yet it isn’t the end of a beautiful life…but a beautiful thing itself…

“Life should not be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well preserved body, but rather to skid in broadside in a cloud of smoke, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming “Wow! What a Ride!”

― Hunter S. Thompson, The Proud Highway: Saga of a Desperate Southern Gentleman, 1955-1967

Think I’m going to splash in the puddles now… with a young heart… “for Laughter is timeless. Imagination has no age. And dreams are forever.” -Walt Disney